Heya.
So when I was just a few months old, my mom left my dad because he was, well, an ass hole. He drank and would mentally and sometimes physically abuse her. So I've had a problem with this my entire life, because I never spoke to or actually saw him except for once or twice. About two or three years ago he decided to drop by from where he lives in New York and have lunch with us. Since I am a naturally shy person and didn't know this guy, I did not want to go. Of course this was no problem to him, he just left with my sisters and they had a grand old time. Since that day the contact between my one sister and him has been a little stronger, but my oldest sister had a fight with him and never spoke to him again. His wife is also a real brainwashed bitch based on conversations she's had with my one sister.
I guess my problem is that he thinks there is nothing wrong with the fact that he never even tried to contact us and I feel like sometimes he cares more about my older sisters that he does about me. It really hurts because I feel like I did nothing to deserve this and he doesn't even feel the least bit sorry for it. Now I have problems with men in general, and he is to blame for it. I really hate him.
And the reason this is brought up again today is because he 'friended' my sister on facebook, and I was worried that he wouldn't friend me. Now I don't know if this is just me, but I shouldn't have to be worried about my own "father" forgeting about me and not 'friending' me on facebook.
Well I just checked a few minutes ago and he did friend me, but I don't know whether to accept it or not. I don't want to because I'm so mad at him for everything, but I don't want him to forget about me. Even though he pretty much already has.
Fuck you, Don. fuck you.
-Jay
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